hella_kyle

HA, i'm a mess still, I thought I'd be off of all my bad habits by now but I seem to just add new ones, at least lying isn't one of them. and i thought that drug would be another way to get closer but after doing it you seemed to push me away-- another chance, maybe? 

thoughts:

It pisses me off how you think it isn't mutual and how I'm still looking around. I added him BEFORE you came around, it's not like I added him last week or something. If I wanted something with anyone else, I wouldn't be doing any of this for you, would I? No, I wouldn't be. I would be focusing all my attention on someone else. But you seem to think the opposite. I'm tired of being a free spirit, and if this is how frustrating it'll be to not be one, then I don't see why I should change. 

I found this picture while looking through my camera.
Kindofold, taken this past fall.

When there's no way out, the only way out is to give in.

I've seen things broken meant to last
I can be out of line--
We've all been haunted by our pasts
Can we just forget mine?

It's time for me to let it out
I love it--
The way you look
Into my hazel
Eyes--
And lose your way
But don't go too far!
I'm always there
Waiting--
For you.

I know I love you
Can you see the way I smile?
Smile and smile
When you're around
Laugh the most
It's different,
But hopefully you feel the same
Even though you're just as lost as I am
Puff but put out,
Puff then pass
Take that last drag off your cigarette--
Candy,
Let the smoke billow
Into clouds drifting away
Like old memories
Do you remember now?
I haven't forgotten that you're still here
That memory has yet to pass.